Saturday, May 24, 2008

It was only a dream!

I woke up this morning having had a terrible dream.  My dream wasn’t about the loss of anyone I love, thank God, but I had a dream that we sold our farm and moved into town.

Our “new” house was an old house, and on 8.8 acres (why do I remember that?).  I have no recollection of why we sold it, and the whole process of “saying goodbye.”   I just recall the vivid dream about moving into the new house and looking at the neighbors’ homes all around (our land in my dream was a long and skinny patch).  I started sobbing, and asking “What about my goats?”  Of course, dreams are not rational, as in my real world I would have thought in the normal course of homebuying I would have ASKED about the goats before signing my life away!  However, it was very significant to me to feel the pain of finding myself somewhere other than where I am now, even in a place that would have been heaven to someone else (large tract of land, big huge trees, lots of shade, a paved road!).  I was devastated.  I sobbed and cried and begged to move back.  I repeatedly wailed, “I made a mistake!  This is horribly wrong!  Is there any way we can move back?!” 

Sometimes I can wake myself up from a dream, or tell myself in the dream that I shouldn’t worry, it is only a dream.  Not this time.  It was very real, and when I woke up with tears on my face, they quickly turned to tears of joy!  I’m not going ANYWHERE!!

I hugged B and told him I had just had the most horrible dream.  He mumbled a consolation and told me to go back to sleep…  (not a morning person)

Instead, I came downstairs and am enjoying the quiet, cool morning.  I can hear the raindrops on the roof of the bathroom (served as a back porch in another life, before bathrooms inside were necessary).  I am curled up under my snuggly blanket with three cats on the couch.

I need to go out for morning chores, and I am a little late.  I think the animals will forgive me as I sit here just being thankful.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

The Procrastination Meme

Okay, because I am a procrastinator, and I have a ton of work to do, but still feel guilty about not blogging, I'm posting a meme.  Don't think that I don't have lots to blog about: dead goats, dead rabbits (not that kind of dead rabbit, no siree!), skunked dogs...  but internet, I am just so very, very tired.  So the meme will have to do.

Come on MK and Michael.  Let's see your answers, too.

What was I doing 10 years ago?
I was living in England in a house where even a mouse would be crowded!

Five Snacks I Enjoy:
chex mix
pretzels
popcorn (air popped, but with real butter & salt)
Sour Apple Trollie-Os that B feeds me
chips & salsa

Five Things on My To Do List Today:
work on a slide show
finish a newsletter
order a meal for a meeting tomorrow
finish typing up minutes for said meeting
barn chores

Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
hire someone else to do the items above
have my home updated and make the attic into a master suite
Buy more goats and a barn to put them in
give a lot away
buy land around me so nobody else can (i.e, developers)

Five Jobs I have had:
KFC worker
Cook at a nursing home
Kinkos clerk
Transcriptionist for a publishing company
mom

Five of my bad habits:
procrastination
cussing like a sailor
collecting animals
not eating breakfast
Biting my nails

Five Places I have lived:
Wisconsin
Arizona
Mississippi
England
Here!

People I want to get to know better: (yes this means you are tagged!)
MK
Michael

Six random things:


I should have gone to the feed store today, but I didn't.  I have had company for the last 2 week and I am still flying by the seat of my pants.

M earned a letter in chorus!  Now I have to buy her a letterjacket.  I dug mine out-- I was so tiny once upon a time!  I wish I were thinner, but I think I was too small at one point.

I promised myself I would take more photos, and I am having a great time inputting them into iDVD.

I miss B during the day.  Sometimes I miss him so much it brings me to tears.  :(

We are having dinner for 2 this evening-- steak and green beans.  One of our favorites!

The windows are all open and I am cold, even though it is nearly 80.